i have a new xanga. though i'm not sure how much i'll use that compared to this one. so then...why did i make it? *scratches head* meh, oh well. i think i'll just slowly end up not using this one.

http://www.xanga.com/Aurion_Lights

Currently Listening The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe see related

i just kind of want to watch Narnia over and over again. it's such an awesome movie. SRSLY! i don't care if you thought it was dumb x] while i did think it seemed a tad slow the second time around, i absolutely love the music. my iPod has been on most of the hours i'm awake, just listening to the soundtrack of Narnia. oh and plus, my brother found this great site where people make remixes of game music. a lot of them are pretty cool. check it out =]

where is the rationality in sacrificing your life by giving in to fear? there isn't one. so i won't. or at least, i'll try not to. but the funny thing is...it has nothing to do with rationality

it would be pretty sweet if i had a 'David' in my life but...i don't need one. at least, not right now

Ut sementem feceris, ita metes

exactly

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=X19cd1RkJYE

some guy named Yasu getting AAA on Max 300 (reverse, stealth)

http://www.youtube.com/?v=ATxwbkm_BnU

.....he JUGGLES while playing So Deep on Heavy!!!

.......someone help me find my eyes because i think they've fallen out....

Currently Listening The Phantom of the Opera (2004 Movie Soundtrack) see related

- The Point of No Return

there's not really much to do around here anymore. i need a place to stay if i'm ever kicked out of my house. which, if you consider the circumstances, could be pretty likely within the next year. and we'll even see if i'm able to go to my sophomore year. because i can't afford tuition after this spring semester. i don't know whether it's because we really have no money for it or whether it's because my dad really doesn't give a crap. and it makes me sad. so....who's willing to offer a living place for me? but if i actually think about it, if i were kicked out, i wouldn't go to anyone's house. i don't want to be a burden on them. and i know i am (or have the potential to be one). i don't know what to do about college anymore. i want to look into loans but i don't have the slightest clue what anything means and i don't know who to ask. because really, which of my friends really care about that kind of thing? i can't even ask my dad because he would only tell me to shut up, that he doesn't care about whether i go to college or not, that the $7,000+ he spends each semester on me is wasted. i don't really want to talk to someone like that.

anyway, there really isn't much to do around here. my house is in just the place where i don't get any reception wherever i go. so i can't call out. because if i could, i would've called so many people already. people i want to see and talk to again. people like Jenna, Sophie, Christina, Peggy, Sean, Amanda. by the way, Peggy if you're reading this, a call finally went through to your house but it was busy. and then it wouldn't go through later. it seems that people can call me but it's a tad fuzzy and all i miss everybody. i just want to go back to college. i can actually try to be independent there.

here, i avoid my dad as much as i can. i don't care anymore. we both hate being seen as weak, we both have too much pride, we both have attitudes and short tempers, we both don't express much to other people, we both don't trust easily, we both play video games a lot, we just fail miserably in communicating. and i give up. didn't i say that before? yeah, well, now it's real.

i still feel like such a child.

and to make matters a tad worse, i think i'm going to have a jaw dislocation problem. because last week at the dentist, after the cleaning, i couldn't close my mouth and it was a horrible feeling. and i have to have three small cavities filled on the same day on the 13th.

by making my main character have the same attitude and emotions i have, and by seeing the comments people make on her personality, i can see how people see the way i am now. and i know i have a lot to learn. yeah, i don't know.

at least i've seen two classic movies i've always wanted to see: Armageddon and The Phantom of the Opera.

Too many years fighting back tears . . .
Why can't the past just die . . .? 

Try to forgive, teach me to live . . .
give me the strength to try . . .

No more memories, no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across the wasted years . . .
Help me say goodbye

i must say this was a rather pointless entry =] 

"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough. " -Frank Crane

just for that, i think Tiffany is my new hero <3

oh and OAO...

 
this is why we win =]

and EdV...

this is why i love you all to pieces. WE ARE THE 5% and we always will be <2+1

*passes around cookies and edible confetti*